Would you be a minimalist if you won the lottery? Aquired an inheritance or other large sum of money? Would it make a difference in how you live?
These questions were one to ponder as I came into some money this spring.
The laws of supply and demand may actually affect my course to minimalism. I hate to admit that. At first I went on a shopping trip and actually bought myself some new clothes. I wondered how I would explain this to my friends that have come to understand my minimalist reputation. Then I went out and bought makeup and it felt so good to dress in something nice and not be invisible. I scolded myself inwardly when I realized what I had done. Why?
I ventured toward becoming a minimalist because I wanted a simpler life, a life without chaos or keeping up with the neighbors. Minimalism had freed me from the past notions of having to keep everything that created a memory or might be useful. I liked not having to worry that if I died my children would be stuck with going through a mountain of things. Minimalism has given me the opportunity to see and consider what matters and to get rid of what doesn’t. When it feels so good to become simple its easy to get carried away. My rules became a prison.
No one else has imposed upon me the ideals that I measure myself with. Then I looked at the true nature of things. Could I feel good about myself and yet keep things simple? Should I ? Just because I spent some money doesn’t mean that I will start hoarding or spend needlessly. Being a minimalist does not require me to always buy things used or to get them for free. There is no rule that says that I can’t have nice things. Part of my thinking was, “what will I say to my readers?” and it became clear that it wasn’t the reader that I need to worry about.
My journey has taught me more about myself. Its allowed me to learn that we as humans often make our own self-made prisons by the preconceived notions and expectations that we put upon ourselves and others. What I walk away with is knowing that I can still make choices that please me and not feel guilty about not fulfilling expectations. I’m still a minimalist at heart and still look for ways to have less but try to find the beauty in it all as well as the balance.